Yes, I do understand.

Oh.

My stomach twists at this thought before bed. I feel that I have to be useful and be the best person.

This happens to me exactly, same time, same symptom, you’re not alone.

For me, I don’t want to die, but I’m fine with it happening. I’m mostly scared about my loved ones leaving me.

You can’t let fear take over your life. Take this thought to cherish every moment you have with your loved ones.

Don’t do it. Sometimes I feel like giving in, but then I remember that my loved ones need me, just like I need them; people care about us, just like we care about them. Everyone is great, you’re great, and people know and appreciate that.

I feel this way too (with only mental problems, occasionally not sleeping), but know that your loved ones will remember you and love you, just the way you do with them.

It helps if you take this thought and cherish every moment you have with these people. It’s inevitable, it happens, and sometimes you just have to accept this and remember that they love you as much as you love them.

It’s hard not to think about something that is inevitable. Something that helps is not to think about when they’ll die, and instead take that thought to cherish every moment with them. This comment helped me realize that, thanks.